Took it for granted
Because you could have it
But once that wasn’t a factor
You just couldn’t fathom
What it’d be like to live without that one
Now you’re shattered
You try to go back
But the past has foreshadowed
The future that holds the fact of the matter
You’ll never see the pain
Just the cover
The laughter
The show must go on
All these feelings, they scatter
They collect in the drain of a cold, lonely shower
But strength will arise
From the depths of these shadows
The pain that you caused
Will bring forth something radical
This heart no longer used for collateral
You reach out with cold fingers
But it’s no longer tangible
It’s gone.
It’s lost.
Unable to revive what you’ve so quickly disposed of
Looking back you realize
Your tragic mistake
Gasp for air
Now you’re choking
What’s that wet on your face?
Needing eyes have all turned
They’re all looking this way
The show must go on on
Quick, call the next play
Pretend it doesn’t matter
Forget the words once exchanged
Your ploy to not feel
Feels like a tragic mistake
Yet once you’re alone
Deemed free from the noise
You’ll sit and remember
This deafening silence was your choice
You may fool those around you
Deep inside you your truth burning
You let go of a love
Your whole life you’ve been yearning
Carry on with the comfort
That your morals lit your path
You decide to not feel
But your feelings are trapped
Buried so low
That even I could not reach
My attempts were futile
You cannot say that I did not bleed
I pick up the pieces
Of a heart ache no one will see
Each day spent healing
Putting myself back carefully
I loved you for some time
But now I can plainly see
That if you ever loved me back
This ride would have ended differently
The strength I have found
It might be hard to believe
But I finally love myself
Because you stopped loving me.
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